Friday, October 21, 2005

Where can I find a stretcher on sale?

I just have to say, I am very proud of my accomplishments today. I had hip hop class, and then I ran about 5 k nonstop, finished with a sprint, and felt like I still had enough for another 5 k. In addition, my legs were already really sore before I went.

Now, I have realized that I am an idiot. I can no longer walk, sit down, or go down stairs without resembling a 90 year old woman with osteoporosis, arthritis, clubfeet and an inner ear infection tossed in just to mess up my balance.

Things I have learned today: I hurt.

And... I have no one to blame but myself for my exercise addiction. Maybe I should get rehab. Except that would involve movement..... someone amputate, please....

Song: MC Lars - iGeneration
Picture: ...but I can't stop!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Random ramblings

So, this is a post mainly for me, because I've made up my mind about a few things, and I doubt anybody knows what I'm talking about, or if they ever will, but that doesn't really matter... because I just need to get something out.

I'm not sure if I've only imagined the last week, or if it's really happened. I'm not sure where I'm going to be with this tomorrow or the day after, or the day after that. I'm not sure if what I'm doing right now is right or wrong. I'm not sure if I'm making a big mistake. I'm not certain of a lot of things.

But I'm sure of myself. I've decided I'm taking a chance, and wherever it leads, it doesn't matter, because sometimes, you just have to let go and see where the tide takes you; regardless of where you end up, it's the experience of getting there that counts. If this all were to stop tomorrow, it wouldn't matter, because I at least took that chance. I don't care what other people think, because those who judge me without really knowing me are not those who really matter. And, in the end, I'll trust my own heart and mind. I'm not scared.

It's funny how it's always the small things that get you everytime, and the big things are so unimportant.

Song: Coldplay - The Scientist
Picture: You will never know what I saw

Monday, October 10, 2005

Turkey!!!

So, I'm going back to Edmonton this morning (in about an hour). I know that in another couple of days, I would want to escape, but right now, I don't really want to leave. I want more vacation! Anyways, my visit home was highlighted by....

-Sleep.
-The most amazing northern lights I've ever seen on the trip out here. They were dancing in the sky for hours. It was incredible.
-Decaffeinated chai tea with milk and extra spices added.
-Sleep.
-A trip through the mountains to my uncle mike's place. I haven't seen my uncle in ages, and it was great to see my cousins and my aunt again. I love them all so much.
-Hauling firewood. Moving a gigantic pile of big heavy pieces of tree makes you feel like you've accomplished something. Unlike ten hours of studying that makes you wonder what you've actually absorbed. And chainsaws are cool.
-Sleep.
-The fact that my family is a bunch of hicks and I love it and become all hicky too when I'm with them.
-Thanksgiving dinner, and greek salad, and cheese (no cheese for Jeanine on a student food budget), and carrot muffins, and oatmeal raisin cookies, and apple pie. And ice cream. AND my mum's stuffing. I think I don't need to eat for the next thousand years. Holy.
-Sleep.
-Crocheting. I got new yarn and stuff and now I'm making a blanket for Chandra's auction to raise money for charity. It's really quite addictive. I'm going to make a bunch of scarves and mittens and socks and toques after this. So now I'm a crocheting mascot coordinator triathlete hick taking a kinesiology degree. I like it.

Oh, and I got to sleep. That was my favourite part. Thanksgiving rocks.

Silverchair - Miss You Love
Picture: One more time

Saturday, October 01, 2005

OVP

So, after a pretty rough week (which I've amazingly done very little complaining about) I've had an absolutely amazing weekend. Orienation volunteer party was a blast; I love everyone so much. I won a star volunteer award, which was pretty cool. Apparently two or three people nominated me, so I was kind of expecting it, even though didn't really want one or anything. I just love doing what I'm doing for the fun of it. But it's beautiful and purple with stickers and such. And the dancing was a blast. It's been so long since I let loose and had so much fun. I kind of had these weird cramps, so that was a bummer, but I still got a bit of dancing in. I loved seeing all the people that mean so much to me here. Really, orientation volunteers are the greatest group I can ever think of.

As a final surprise, my TF Chad stopped me and talked to me for a good ten or fifteen minutes before I left. He said a lot of things, but mainly, he told me that I was one of the most phenomenal people he's ever met; that he's been a TF for several years now, but that on OL evaluations he wrote down that I was the best volunteer he has ever had, and that he highly, highly recommends me for a TF position or any other kind of position with Orientation staff. If anyone else had said something like that, I might have passed it off as just idle flattery, but Chad isn't like that, so I really appreciated everything he said. I haven't decided what I would like to do next year. I love Mugs, because it's all year, but at the same time, I think it might be exciting to step up and take a TF position. Or perhaps an Orientation staff position... but I think I might go for that not this coming year, but the year after. We'll wait and see.

Today, I had science fundamentals training. That was a lot of fun, I can't wait to go into the classrooms and get into doing the experiments. Later on tonight, I had a great conversation with a friend, with whom I haven't really been sure of where we stood for a long time. Now, I feel like I know exactly where we are, and I feel so comfortable and close in the friendship. It's such a rush, and an amazing relief to have someone who understands you and you can feel completely comfortable in your skin around them. It's been such a long while....

Anyways, I have to get up early for Safewalk training too now. Have a wonderful night.

Song: Fall Out Boy - Sugar, We're Going Down*
Picture: ...then where I came from

*I highly recommend downloading this one/getting the CD. It's a fabulous song.